So, this is my first, EVER, blog post! Of course my instantaneous decision to start blogging came from none other than God! He gives me all of my good ideas. :) So where did this come from? God likes to deal with my heart and speak to my spirit when I am driving. I have about a 20 minute drive to class so I usually crank up my KLove and worship all the way there. I started thinking about my life and where I'm at. All of the amazing things God is doing with it, how blessed I am, if I am actually recognizing how blessed I am...that kind of thing. All of this thinking led to thinking about law school, as it usually does. I run around "like a chicken with my head cut off" wondering how I am going to get it all done, and how I am supposed to remember everything I am supposed to remember, but this time I was thinking a little slower than usual. A little more philosophically. I started to slowly realize that God is way bigger than law school. No, for real, HE IS! Law school is scary, getting married is exciting but it is a huge change and that can be scary too. Put them together and well, life is getting real! What I realized though, is that God sent my husband to me, so that is something to take solace in. Regarding school, God gave me that opportunity, he created the minds of the people who created the law. He created the law! He created law school, he created my professors. He knows it is hard! He knows I am frustrated and tired. He knows. So he does little things to brighten my day! Like this...I was in my car, on my way back from school, crying because I was extremely overwhelmed. All of the sudden a song comes on the radio that God knew I needed to hear. The very first few lines of the song are, "You brought me this far, so why would I question you now? You have provided so why would I start to doubt? I've never been stranded, abandoned, or left in a fight alone, so I'm giving you control." Ha! I'm sure when I went from crying to laughing, God started smiling! He likes it when we laugh. Needless to say, before the song came on I was thinking I couldn't do it anymore, it wasn't worth it. God knew what I was thinking...he had the answer without me even asking the question.

Proverbs 16:3 say, "Commit your work to the Lord and your plans will succeed." In that moment, God blessed me to see that because I have committed my work (law school) to him, he will help me succeed. He will get me through it. That goes for anything, not just law school. See, God loves us so much and he wants us to succeed! Not only does he want us to succeed but maybe sometimes he allows it to be hard so that we are forced to see that we didn't get through it on our own, but that he got us through it! He is just that Great! The rest of the song says, "I lift my life, lift my life up, I give it all in surrender. I lift my heart, lift my heart up, you can have it forever. All my dreams, all my plans, Lord I leave them in your hands. I lift my life, lift my life up, have your way with me." 

So, here is my prayer:

Jesus, you see my frustration and my desire to succeed, but I want my desire to serve you and love you to be far greater than my desire to succeed. So ignite that fire in me! Help me give it all to you, surrender it all. I commit my plans to you, I give my heart to you, I surrender my life to you. Help me be patient with myself and others. Help me get through the end of this semester and while getting through it let your love radiate off of me. Let everyone I come in contact with feel your overwhelming love and amazing peace! I love you, Lord! Thank you for giving me this opportunity to be your hands and feet. 

xoxo,
Emily